I had a very distinct moment of clarity after Tai Chi class this week.
During a conversation with Sifu Dennis, I commented on how good it felt completing part 4. Not a thank goodness it's over feeling, more of a sense of accomplishment in being able to finally remember the sequence and an overall sense of enjoyment. I had mentioned to Sifu, how even though the sequence became my main focus, I still experienced aha moments and discovered chi in different ways.
Mentioning the aha moments and self discoveries helped me in that moment to understand my body now moves differently because of those experiences and how they have become a part of me. It makes sense that I most likely won't feel or have those same exact experiences. I expect going forward there will be similarities with slight differences as I focus on applying concepts and truths.
Our conversation brought clarity which I knew to be true in that moment. I was surprised because it was completely unexpected and also a bit surprised I hadn't realized this before now. I believe the knowing was already there, just a bit fuzzy. I can see now how this realization was actually building over the past few months. I find sometimes talking with someone can help to solidify things that are already percolating.
With this new found clarity I am able to let go of the desire or need to recreate aha moments and feelings. I'm learning to train differently, with greater awareness and trust in myself as I continue to build, change and move forward.
Totals
Push ups & Sit ups: 880/32650
Hand form: 10/437
Weapon form: 8/456
KM: 26/1240
AOK: 36/1104
Sparring: 0/164
Blogs: 1/41
Yoga: 30/20.5 hrs
Tai Chi: 10/581
MM:21/840
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