Gratitude - Anchoring Moments

Practising gratitude has been part of my daily life for a few years now. I typically start my morning being grateful for the day ahead. And then I do a review of the things I’m grateful for before I go to bed in the evening. There are times when it can become a bit robotic and this is when I know I need to change things up a bit and refocus on why I practise gratitude.

There are times I’ll take a specific gratitude and expand on all the reason why I’m grateful for it. Other times I'll focus on being grateful for a challenging situation, the lesson presented and the potential opportunity to learn and grow. Practising gratitude when things don't go as planned or life's little challenges helps with perspective and gives me back some control of the situation. 

Recently, I’ve been working on applying awareness and and gratitude throughout the day. It is these moments of gratitude in real time that I find most powerful. I see them as anchoring moments that often fill my being with wonder, connection and reinforce a life well-lived. 

On my recent trip to China I experienced many moments of gratitude. Walking through the square amongst hundreds of Kung Fu students as they were training and then standing in the performance hall at the Shaolin Wushu Center was one of those profound anchoring moments. Many days later as we were heading back to our hotel at night, I was struck by the beauty of the colorful lights on the bridge we passed by, and I thought how beautiful China is. This led to some reflection and I was filled with gratitude for all I'd experienced. Something that came to mind in that moment was how much Kung Fu has shaped my life and empowered me to experience and travel the world. I've thought this many times in the past and still it is great to have that reinforcement and not take it for granted. 

Numbers Update

 Here are my numbers to the end of May

Pushups - 3740 modified + 585 full

*Up to 10 full pushups per set and working to increase full pushups every week or two.

Situps - 4325

Km's - 274

*Only tracking intentional Km's

AOK's - 284

Weapon - 234 reps + 385 min on individual techniques and learning form

H Form - 246 reps + 415 min on individual techniques and learning form

Blogs - 16

Sparring - 22

Kung Fu While Traveling

As I travel through China, the physical aspect of my kung fu looks quite a bit different. Time and space to do form reps has been almost nonexistent and yet there’s still a lot of Kung Fu happening. The great thing about Kung Fu is it so easily transferrable and applicable to every aspect of life. 

There has been many opportunities for mindful acts of kindness, practising awareness, a balance of eating healthy, and just eating for enjoyment as I try new foods and local sweets. I’m not adventurous when it comes to food, but I find myself trying something different most days.

Rather than stressing about what I can’t get done, my focus is on enjoying each moment, making new friends and stepping out of my comfort zone to experience and connect with the world around me. 

Push ups have been my anchor and doing a minimum of 1 set of 10 full pushups and at least 20 modified each day is helping me continue a degree of consistency. One would think this should be quite easy but with jet lag, 14 hour time difference and some very busy days, even this feels like a struggle at times. 

I have much gratitude and feel blessed to be traveling and experiencing this wonderful country of China!

Injury Without Ego

Being a student of Kung Fu there always seems to be someone dealing with an injury or chronic issue, myself included. Quite often these injuries or issues come with a degree of frustration when it comes to limitations, the ups and downs of recovery or a timeline that doesn’t fit our expectations. 

As martial artists we learn to adapt, expand our ability to listen to our bodies and even embrace the benefits of training differently, knowing there is much to be gained from the challenges we are faced with. Part of these challenges include learning to appreciate and take better care of our bodies. As students pursing a path towards mastery it becomes ingrained in us to push our limits. Because of this it can be challenging to not push too hard or to soon while navigating an injury, especially as we experience moments of impatience.

Hearing others talk about their injuries and areas of struggle is helping me to take a step back and consider my own chronic knee issues in a slightly different light. I think it comes down to being able to take ego out of the equation. When I remove ego it allows more space for joy, better equipping me to work with the injury instead of against it. 

 Joy brings a harmonious ease and spaciousness to life, it is a balanced expression with calm and tranquil energy. Joy creates openness and clarity helping to navigate a way forward. Going beyond our limits then becomes a natural way of being rather than a need to force or push our limits. Ego is removed.

So the challenge as I see it is to let go of ego and embrace joy in order to fully absorb and appreciate the path these lessons are tying to steer us towards. That is what will take us beyond our self imposed limits. Adaptation and anything else that matters will come naturally and the way forward will become clear.

China, here I come!

I have a trip to China coming up very quickly and will be gone from May 19 to June 4, back just in time for the Farmers Day parade. In addition to adapting to a very different training schedule I will need to think about and prepare for a demo after the parade. 

While away I know training will require adjustments to be made on a daily basis as I adapt to the time difference, lack of space and each days itinerary. I may not be able to do whole form reps, but I’m sure there will be opportunities to work on specific techniques or maybe at times sections of my forms. There may be days where all I can muster is some meditation at the end of the day. And that will be ok as long as I am being mindful and taking advantage of opportunities. In addition to experiencing and absorbing all that China has to offer my goal is to focus on aspects of Kung Fu on a daily basis to retain consistency. And if I can manage that, it will be easier to step back into a training routine when I arrive back home because the consistency will still be in place.

Access to Facebook and email may present some challenges. Hopefully my eSIM and VPN will help to provide access to these platforms so I can continue to share blogs and submit my numbers come June 1. And I’m hoping to be able to connect on FaceTime for our Saturday morning Classes. 

The time difference is 14 hours so 8 AM on Saturday morning will be 10 PM in China. ☝

Because I won’t be here for the Tiger Challenge, I will be posting a video of my hand form and my weapon form. I know it’s not the same as taking part in the tournament, but still applying effort. I'm not very comfortable with watching videos of myself and then to put it out there for all to see feels like a step into the great unknown. A good way to expand my bubble.

Setting the Bar Higher

The female population have a naturally harder time with push-ups. Adding in the aging body to the equation has increased the difficulty in regaining my ability to do multiple full push-ups. The year started off with being able to do 2-3 full push-ups and I've progressed carefully and slowly at this time to 6 full push-ups. Yes, it’s taking me a bit longer than I would’ve expected, but I’ve been happy with the results because there is progression and I’m not injuring myself in the process. 

It turns out that what first started as progressing wisely has now begun to limit me. I didn’t realize this was happening until having a conversation with Sifu Hayes about push-ups. He mentioned having a bigger or even unrealistic number in his head when doing his pushups. It’s like a little lightbulb went off in my brain. My focus had been to add one full push-up with good technique every week or two as I built up muscle strength. Progression yes, quality yes, and yet very slow. There was also mention of doing them faster or slower at different parts of the push-up, a way to trick the brain and body to be able to do more. 

I’ve since experimented with having a bigger number in my head as I set out to do my push-ups and wow, it works. Instead of just going from 6 to 7 push-ups I’ve been able to do eight and even 10 push-ups. It's interesting because when I thought about increasing by just 1 pushup, it felt like a struggle and suddenly I'm doing an extra 2-4 pushups. 

Mentally raising the bar while in the moment has helped me to move beyond the limits I had set for myself. The possibility for potential and progression expanded while still allowing me to listen to my body and train wisely. What I love about this as well is how I’m able to connect this experience to the lessons 'Mastery' by Stewart Emery endeavours to teach us. I see the relevance to my life and the untapped potential that we all hold when we we remove arbitrary limits.

A Change in Seasons

During the long cold winter months, I mostly want to snuggle in and hibernate. It’s a time of year that embraces my introvert self. I also find training and routine are much easier to maintain. Even with the hibernation aspect of the season, I manage to get quite a bit done. There’s less daylight hours, but the days feel longer and more productive at times.

And then there is spring and Summer. This is a time for outdoors, gardening, long walks, camping and patio time with friends or family. It’s a time of year that says hello to the extrovert part of myself. A time of year, where I find it more challenging to engage in training and routine is a struggle to maintain. It’s an also a time of year where I feel a deeper connection to everything around me.

With the change in seasons bringing warmer weather, lovely sunshine and longer days, I’m feeling conflicted. There’s been a bit of a mini internal battle going on as I consider how to fit in my Kung Fu training over the next few months. There are days where mediocrity and mastery are in an active battle with each other. While this may be annoying it's not necessarily a bad thing. The two complement each other. Mediocrity humbles mastery and mastery challenges mediocrity.

I'm not stressed about how I'm going to fit the training in, because I know there is always flexibility and adjustments that can be made. My struggle is more of an internal battle of ego. I've been able to maintain my daily training routine to this point, so I continue to keep that in front of me. With that in mind I open myself to view the change in seasons as an opportunity to embrace this new flow, remind myself I get to, and find ways to adjust. Control is within my power and that control starts with my perspective. It also requires awareness of ego and how I manage where it tries to lead me.

I have control over my perspective, I am choosing my own path and I embrace the parameters provided to help guide me along the way.