Training has been so so lately. I know it is normal to have some peaks and valleys. The idea though is to be aware and recognize a plateau or a slippery slope downward so that adjustments and course corrections can be made sooner than later. I am currently navigating one of those slippery slopes.
A large portion of my mental and emotional energy had been focused on my dogs health, physical condition and comfort. I was still training and keeping up with everything so there were no red flags at the time. And then I started to see bit of a pattern of lower numbers as I logged each day. Things not getting completed. I know from past experience that awareness often happens after the fact. After momentum has already started its downward trajectory.
This past week our dog passed, and I allowed myself permission to ease off a bit on the push ups and sit ups. My numbers are well above where they need to be and so I felt comfortable with not completing as much on some days. My knees ache every day and the pain and discomfort increases the more I use them. I found myself needing more down time. Yes, I have valid reasons and yet they can also become excuses if I let them.
In addition to faltering on some of my numbers, I even considered not blogging again this week. I really wasn’t even sure what I wanted to blog about. I’ve been having a difficult time sorting out my thoughts about where I am right now. Understandable given my current mental state. Reading and hearing from other team members about their struggles has help push me to reflect and write this blog as I am also struggling. I know how important it is to have a record of where I am, what I’m doing and be honest with myself.
Even though my trajectory has been off, I have anchors/tools that helped to keep me from falling off the completely. I have 4 primary anchors that I find helpful. An anchor can be something that weighs you down, dragging along where ever you go. Or an anchor can be a tool that helps to keep you on course, allowing you to complete actions and make discoveries. An anchor from a positive perspective can provide a sense of accomplishment leading towards future success.
My anchors are blogging, reciting mastery every morning and doing push ups and sit ups. The beauty of having more than one anchor to help support my journey is I have backups when one or more isn’t working. I also have experience and awareness on my side to help me recognize when I am in need of a course correction or even help from others.
I'm trying to find that balance of taking care of myself emotionally and physically while still moving forward.
I am a work in progress.
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