Change Starts With Me!

I'm going a bit stir crazy, feeling a bit like a caged bird unable to spread my wings. I had all these great plans to incorporate more training into my days and I just can’t seem to find much opportunity for uninterrupted time or space. 

Whatever was I thinking? I’ve gone from a mostly orderly life to disorder. Wait a minute… , I was looking to change things up and add more to my life. Well I certainly got what I asked for. Making the decision to get a puppy was not done lightly and included much thought and  research before hand, but there is only so much a person can prepare for.  Just like kids, dogs have distinctive personalities, traits and challenges to learn and work within.

This years transition from winter to spring has been wonderful with the warm weather, but there has also been too much sand, wetness and muck everywhere. It feels never ending and adds extra work/cleanup with a pup. I'm definitely feeling the disorder and mess these past 2 weeks. 

On a positive note: 

- I have added value to my life and my pups life. And as I mentioned before I'm now outdoors much more than before, walking everyday and finding opportunities to enjoy the moment.

- Something else I’ve noticed is my ability to step outside my social bubble and talk/ interact with random people I meet on walks or at the dog park. And I’m finding it relatively easy and enjoyable. 

- Another positive is I recognize these challenges as opportunities to make adjustments and exercise my ability to expand my perspective. 

Am I resisting too much in terms of acceptance or am I simply not putting in enough effort? I believe the answer is yes. There is a bit of both going on with a dollop of procrastination added in. 

In terms of effort and procrastination - I have 2.5 - 3 hours most mornings before work that could be more productive, so on Friday I put together a loose schedule for the morning to provide some direction in order to be more productive and alleviate any guilt. I think this will work to help keep me on track, be more accountable to myself and hopefully build some better habits.

Change requires opening your heart and allows for an evolving perspective and the ability to search and find the value, the vision and any future investment potential. It’s also requires practicing gratitude and letting go in order to move forward.