This week has been about introducing a bit more structure and routine into my life, in a way that pushes me to some degree but also makes sense. My initial focus throughout the week has been my hand and weapon forms with minimal daily pushups and sit ups added in. Training during the early part of the day currently seems to work best for me. With that being said, there were a couple of days where adjustments were required and training got done later in the day. I may not have been on track with many of the team requirements, but it was a good start for me.
I'm finding it difficult to jump in fully and commit to the Kao Shi program. It actually feels very overwhelming to view the whole and try to implement everything. This is most likely due in part to spending the past year, figuring things out on my own as I continued to pursue mastery. I was able to rely on the foundation built over many years on the IHC. And even when stuff didn’t go according to plan, or I fell off track, what I was doing worked. I had time and space to figure things out and I thrived.
I experienced often throughout the year how it feels to live in a state of calm and peacefulness. Maybe there is also an age related component that requires me to slow down and reminds me to be more mindful and true to myself. There is certainly a degree of wisdom that all plays a part of where I am at right now.
So the question some and even myself may be asking is why then did I join the team? I joined because I intuitively know it is the next step in my journey. I know a team environment is invaluable when it comes to support and personal growth and I am able to imagine the possibilities for me in the year ahead.
Aside from the team requirements and my intended personal goals, there is an also a bigger picture I hope and plan to achieve. I know there will be continued personal growth, and opportunities to stretch my bubble. More importantly, though I’m looking to discover and develop my inherent gifts and passions that will help me to define myself as a martial artist.
