It has been much too long since I've posted any numbers. Since the end of April actually. If you have been reading my blogs you will know that I have been struggling in many ways. The effort has been there off and on, but my efforts to get back on track over the months usually only lasted a day or two. I tried numerous times and never seemed to remain consistent. I've given myself all sorts of start dates. Tomorrow, next week, the beginning of the month and even the present day. Nothing seemed to work.
This past week has seen some of my best effort and results. So what has changed? The biggest turning point has been coming to the conclusion that I just have to let go of circumstances beyond my control. I have exhausted all avenues of help and support for my dad and myself. Even though the situation is no better, I feel some weight lifted and stress has been reduced. Mental and physical energy is now able to be redirected to where it will best serve me and in return others as well.
This weekend I sat down and took a look at everything I had recorded for May, June, July and August. Because I never gave up and continued to track most of my progress I do actually have some numbers recorded. I am thankful for those numbers and am aware that there are some that also got missed. Acts of kindness are one of the biggest areas that I stopped recording and even thinking about and it shows in my totals.
As I added things up though, an interesting thing happened. I had started off thinking about how dreadful my numbers were going to be and how far behind I was. Very quickly though something changed and I found myself starting to feel excited. I remember thinking this is not what I expected to feel. As I added the numbers each week and saw the totals grow, I began to feel a sense of accomplishment. Yes I wasn't where I wanted to be, but I was much further along than I realized and further along than I would have been if I had stopped recording my numbers completely. Wow, the power of tracking progress and not giving up!
Numbers February 1 - August 31st
PU - 19920 Sparring - 353
SU - 20460 KM - 570
Hand Form - 475 AOK - 422
Weapon - 455 Yoga - 16 Hrs
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