Crossroads - Teaching

At times I feel grounded and then there are times when I don't.

I've built consistency into my life and yet lately I feel I lack consistency.

I'm also struggling and thriving at the same time.

It feels like I have reached a crossroads, a time of decisive action.

 - There are two paths to choose from. I know the path I need and want to travel. It is the one with the big sign pointing towards mastery. The twisty, winding road with hidden corners and obstacles. I know it is also the path with people cheering me on and leads me to even more personal growth.

- The other path that calls to me is welcoming and warm, but I know it stops short of really going anywhere. It is easy street, making false promises. In fact it is really just a facade for mediocrity.

Both paths run side by side and I find myself stepping from one to the other, being pulled towards mediocrity. The thing is I've been on the path towards mastery for quite some time now, working at reducing mediocrity in my life. I know I will continue on this path. Why then do I feel myself pulled towards mediocrity? The reason is I've reached a different level of discomfort and uncertainty causing internal struggle. I'm on the correct path, but am having trouble putting one foot in front of the other. There have been days where I've taken steps or even leaps forward and other days where I feel rooted in place or going backwards. Hmm..., similar to working on and progressing in our forms. 

As I falter and struggle there is a part of me that propels me forward in the right direction. It can be downright exhausting to have this inherent awareness of the pitfalls of mediocrity and the drive to travel the difficult and challenging path. I also know the benefits and personal growth are huge which is why I can't help but choose the correct path.

Mediocrity can be very enticing. I have more than enough in my life already without knowingly choosing additional mediocrity!

As I write this I already have a plan of action to help me forge ahead and continue my journey on the path towards mastery. It is going to take some planning, time and effort to achieve my goal and I know the resulting success will be worth it.

Totals

Push ups & Sit ups: 910/19260
Hand form: 10/278
Weapon form: 1/278
KM: 37/588
AOK: 31/601
Sparring: 0/118
Blogs: 1/22
Yoga: 0/10.5hrs
Tai Chi: 18/362
MM:25/464