Something I noticed after being back home for only a few days is how quickly negative thoughts start to pop up. I should do this, or I need to do that, etc, etc. I label them negative, because there is resistance attached to them. I understand their value and yet I still push back and procrastinate. Mediocrity pulls at me and then there is a measure of guilt.
I was trying to hold onto and incorporate some of the vacation mode feeling into my day to day routine once I returned home. Life has a different feel and pace while on vacation and I feel more alive and connected to the world we live in when I travel. I love feeling more relaxed, where time and choices are more my own while making connections with people and places along the way.
As I thought more I realized these thoughts weren't negative on their own. It was more how I was perceiving them to be. I could actually view them as welcome reminders and helpful in accomplishing my goals. Instead I viewed them as tasks to do, adding to the potential weight of my day.
I always have choices and I know I have the ability to control the narrative inside my head with practice and time. Mediocrity is in the nooks and crannies all around me and takes ongoing effort to recognize and reduce. The good news is I'm not clinging to mediocrity, I'm exploring the world and I'm exploring myself even if it's messy at times.
Totals
Push ups & Sit ups: 1470/28120
Hand form: 10/376
Weapon form: 7/340
KM: 214/1081
AOK: 80/935
Sparring: 10/155
Blogs: 3/36
Yoga: 3.5/17hrs
Tai Chi: 20/509
MM:62/702
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