This has been a very interesting year so far. With a big change in priorities and focus, very little is going according to plan. I could feel frustrated and yet I’ve found myself catching glimpses of beauty all around, feeling joy and fully embracing those moments. And the power of those moments often lingers long after the moment has passed.
As a result of feeling these profound moments of peace and joy, I find that I struggle with identifying myself as struggling. I’m not opposed to struggling because I do know how beneficial and motivating working through struggles can be.
When I think about phrases like ups and downs, good or not so good or even simply struggling I get a bit stuck. Even if I’m not feeling totally up or good I just can’t seem to attach down, not good or struggling to myself. There just doesn't seem to be the right word or phrase in the english language to accurately describe how I am feeling and what I am experiencing in that moment.
How much of this is a case of a rose-coloured glasses syndrome? Am I living in denial? Hmm..., I'm not completely sure. I do know there is still a measure of awareness and desire to find ways to do and be more, so that is positive. And I am currently actively working on striking a healthy balance that makes sense to who and where I am in this moment. So am l struggling? Maybe I am right where I need to be at this point in my life.
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