Right from the start of the year, as life has a tendency to do, priorities shifted and continued to shift. This caused my well thought out plans and goals to crumble away. At first, I tried to stay on course and restart as needed. And then after continuing to struggle I simply let go. It wasn’t about giving up, it was more about redirecting my focus, making adjustments and embracing the changes.
The unexpected personal growth I’ve experienced this year has been a direct result of things not going as planned. However, positive results and growth are not just the product of being thrown off track. Having the freedom and personal space to focus on me, helped to remove internal clutter and expectation, allowing me to embrace my life and the changes I was navigating. And as plans started to unravel consistent blogging became my anchor, it helped me to gather my thoughts and experiences and steered my journey in a more purposeful direction.
Along with personal growth I am also evolving as a martial artist. My understanding and feel of expansion and contraction is evolving. I'm learning to stand in my legs versus on my legs which has been a slower process than I'd like with ongoing knee issues. Core stability, understanding of vectors and energy are also being worked on and are evolving. So even though I've accomplished very little from my initial list of goals, I feel as though everything I've gained over the year is quite substantial and even profound at times.
Reading back over my blogs from this year helps me to see the relationship I continue to build with myself and my Kung Fu. It also provides a more accurate picture of my journey throughout the year. Relying on memory alone would invite ego to surface and cloud the overall picture.
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