Overload

I was reminded recently that maybe where I am right now is right where I'm mean't to be. Even though I know this to be true, I needed the reminder. My brain has been stuck on overload and is creating a bit of chaos and when this happens I tend to pull away. I have also started to give some serious thought regarding whether or not to continue with my Kung fu training. There is so much that needs to be worked on and fixed that I am not sure where to even start. There is that little voice inside my head that tells me how terrible I am at Kung fu so why torture myself and my instructors. Then of course there is the other voice that tells me I just need to put in more effort and work harder. The question is: where do I start?

Some of the personal goals that I set for the year have helped to keep me moving forward. I have been able to check off some of my own boxes and that feels good. I have taken a good look at where I am and I know that there are some adjustments that can be made.  I have come up with a few ideas to help create a bit more time to work on my training. Also one of my personal goals this year is to dance for 10 minutes a day with or without music for a minimum of 30 days. This is a goal that needs to be worked on sooner than later as it will help me to quiet my mind and teach my body to move more freely and naturally. I also intend to make some changes to my diet for better health and energy.

I'm ok with where I am at, as long as I take the time to recognize and understand why I am here and what needs to be done to move forward.

Namaste,

Michele Ward