I recall at the start of the year reading the last 3 words of 'Mastery' by Stuart Emery and feeling at the time that they really weren't necessary. Why add "Correct, don't protect" at the end? I am now beginning to understand how powerful and important these 3 little words are.
Even though my training and achievements have been on track this year, I have been struggling with some negative feelings off and on. A bit like a yo yo effect. Mostly I am able to recognize the low spots and recover quickly. Lately though I have been feeling like a bit of a "fake." These are the times when I feel alone even with a strong supportive team, as this is an internal battle that I fight.
Feelings of being "fake" or not being enough is a way of invalidating and protecting myself from potential future failures and moving forward. I know that if I allow myself to continue with these thoughts and feelings I am giving them more power. I need to recognize when this is happening and make corrections without invalidating myself and my achievements.
There are days when mastery shines or mediocrity rules and then there are the days where a combination of both take place. I think that it is those days where both are present that create this feeling of being "fake." Why I am on this journey towards mastery if I allow so much mediocrity into my life? I know what I want to and need to be doing and yet I am secretly eating chips and ice cream with my friend mediocrity at my side, even though earlier that same day I entertained mastery and completed all my push ups, sit ups and forms reps.
Is mediocrity a way for my mind and body to protect itself? Protecting those comfortable bad habits from being ripped apart and molded into something better? Protecting me from potential failure, or expanding my bubble and leading to greater success?
Sometimes the opponent that we are in battle with is ourself. Remember to stay calm, assess the situation, breath and make the necessary corrections. And always endeavour to do the best you can in any given moment. Also recognize that your best may be different from moment to moment depending on the situation. If mastery feels overwhelming at times then maybe think more about working towards consistency as you grow into mastery.
Corrections and adjustments are an ongoing necessity as we travel this path. I am committing to making these corrections with love, gratitude and a large measure of joy!
Namaste everyone!
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