Discombobulated!

I've had a week of feeling off. A bit of irritability, impatience, anxiety and generally out of sorts. Some of these feelings can be attributed to work and some are a result of the Tiger Challenge. 

The Tiger Challenge is always a mix of emotions for me. This year there were extra layers of going out of my comfort zone as I would be competing in the blackbelt division for the first time and most likely in a role of judging events.

In the Young Dragons class this week I was given the opportunity to be a centre judge in a sparring ring. Watching and doing are very different and most of what I thought I knew left my brain. I fumbled a lot, but did ok. I felt bad that Todai Poonie injured her shin in the last match which left me thinking I could have maybe prevented the injury. 

During a conversation with Sihing Logan Ward, he commented that the student gained a valuable lesson and will have benefited from the injury. When he pointed that out I was able to remove the focus from myself and see the whole picture - student and instructor both learning. I didn't get to see Todai Poonie compete in the Tiger Challenge, but I did see she competed and earned a medal in sparring.

Knowing this would be a stressful week with the upcoming Tiger Challenge I planned for extra self care. The extra yoga sessions and Qi Gong throughout the week helped to mitigate anxiety and stress. I would also remind myself to put things into perspective when I found myself starting to get wound up.

Another Tiger Challenge has come and gone and I stepped out of my comfort zone. I competed in the blackbelt division for the first time and acted as a judge in the level 2 Teen/Adult division. I am less focused on the medals earned or not earned and more focused on the personal wins.

Totals

Push ups & Sit ups: 700/15000
Hand form: 9/224
Weapon form: 19/235
KM: 22/450
AOK: 28/484
Sparring: 2/91
Blogs: 1/18
Yoga: 1/9 hrs
Tai Chi: 23/282
MM:17/360