Letting Go & Moving Forward

There has been a lot going on in my head these past few months. 

I've come to a crossroads. This is not a sudden development, rather more of a gradual knowing, a faded map inside my head indicating possible crossroads. There has been more than one decision to be made. I am being guided in new and different directions, away from the main path, but still with similar goals. 

As I feel pulled to stray from the well trodden path, I also feel a bit of uncertainty. Changes can be scary which is why I'm taking time to figure things out in my head and on paper. I have ideas and goals in mind and plan to make use of the many tools Kung Fu has provided me over the years. I'm sure there will be some learning curves and unsuccessful moments and also lots more personal growth. 

Now that I'm home from my trip I've been working at getting back into more of a regular routine. Having the time and space to practice yoga felt really good. I sometimes don't realize how much I miss it until I am in the midst of practice, similar to working on my forms. Yoga this week was very powerful and beneficial. We worked on our liver and gallbladder meridians with a focus on inspiration as part of the practice. 

As I moved through the practice, I felt a shift and release of energy. Afterwards as I sat with that feeling and thought about inspiration and enthusiasm, a tear ran down my cheek. I found myself wondering why and what the unexpected emotion was about. 

Is this sadness? Sadness - because of what I may be leaving behind and letting go of.

Is this joy? Joy - for the gratitude of awareness and the possibilities to come. 

I quickly realized it was a combination of both. Those seemingly simple words of inspiration and enthusiasm resonated with me deeply and I realized they tied in with the decisions I'd been wrestling with and the changes to come.

Yoga this week helped to authenticate and solidify this change of direction and has reinforced the importance of inspiration and enthusiasm in my journey. I feel a more authentic flow with these decisions and changes in course. Needless to say this new path may come with uncharted territory and will require much effort, planning and flexibility. I'm excited and a bit nervous to see where these new paths takes me.

More to come...

Totals

Push ups & Sit ups: 950/35150
Hand form: 8/459
Weapon form: 8/482
KM: 87/1388
AOK: 73/1219
Sparring: 0/164
Blogs: 3/46
Yoga: 60min/22hrs
Tai Chi: 12/614
MM:43/914