Dad passed away early Sunday morning. It was a bit unexpected and yet not a complete surprise. After 3 weeks of slow decline with a few hopeful improvements here and there, he passed quietly in his sleep. Thankfully I made the choice to stop in Saturday night after the Blackbelt ceremony to see him for a quick visit, not knowing it would be the last time. I believe dad waited to let go, not wanting my brothers and I to have his passing as our last memory of him.
I wasn't sure I would blog this week. Reasons or excuses often factor into the choices we make. Some are even very valid given the situation. I guess what I try to do is ask myself what sacrifices make sense and hope I get it right. I know not blogging won't serve me, so even when life is challenging I try to push myself and write some sort of blog. In other areas I often shut down, but the blogging remains a priority.
I can grieve, take care of dad's arrangements, and give myself space as needed. The grief at this point seems to come in gentle waves so I do what I can in between. And right now that means get a blog done. Death is inevitable and life goes on.
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