Unexpected Places

The lessons and gifts keep coming, some from expected places and others from unexpected places. 

It was mentioned at last weeks 2nd degree class again that we are the product of SRKF and what that means. The interesting thing is I really took it to heart and it felt that the message was being directed to me which caused some internal struggle. I knew I was most likely reading more into it than I should, but I couldn't stop thinking about what was said and how it impacted me. I needed to sort out in my head why I was reacting so. 

As I thought about it and I took reaction out of the equation I was able to be a bit more objective, helping me to see the lessons and the gifts. Even if the comments were not directed to me I knew that I could still learn from the message. There is always room for me to grow and be more self aware. And if the comments were directed at me then I owe the sender a big thank you for the reminder. 

This had bothered me to the extent that I didn't feel I could attend class in person until I was feeling better physically and emotionally and until I could give 100%. Even after I had sorted everything out my ego still created an excuse to stay away and I wasn't planning on attending in person all week. I talked to Sihing Ward Wednesday afternoon and he convinced me to just go to class. It was very similar to the talks we used to have when he was young and he wasn't keen on going to class. The tables had turned and I am grateful for that.

These were my lessons:

A lesson in recognizing ego in motion -  this provided opportunity to practice self awareness, respect and control. Step aside ego, I've got this!

A lesson in self development - There are many benefits to be gained through self reflection. Putting in the effort and doing the work opened more doors. 

A lesson in positivity - practicing gratitude daily and taking note of positive steps along the way have helped to shift my frame of mind. I am finding that I don't stay stuck as long when I encounter a snag.

Sometimes I need to step back and take the time to reflect on how far I've come as a martial artist and my growth as an individual. A dear friend helped to remind me of this. It is easy to get caught up in all the to do's and areas for improvement while forgetting to appreciate the journey taken thus far. 

I am very appreciative for all the opportunities, the lessons learned and the personal growth I've been so blessed to have experienced. And I hold immense gratitude towards myself for embarking on this journey and doing the work.